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RitaGamer #73741 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 17:42

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Is this intervention time?

 

...Ok...

I've gotten a lot on my plate at the personal level, one of the reasons I've retreated into gardening and been escaping during the weekends, been slightly on the verge of exploding, I can become very autodestructive right before I do and been trying really hard to stay on a healthy path.

Truth is I started having panic and anxiety attacks since last year, you, more than anyone else here knows why and they have become more frequent. I've decided to break-up with Squadie-San this weekend because of that, I do love him but can't take it, I can't find myself to trust someone still and been overly stressed this entire summer...

 

I'm feeling lost/no guidance in life and I've been feeling awfully alone and doing a lot of stupid / no moral things recently, it became worse around when I started hanging in this thread... I feel less miserable when I come here.

 

 

...I've been dealing with depression and anger issues...

 

There, you have it. I'm trying to keep straight, I really am.


Edited by RitaGamer, Aug 31 2016 - 17:43.


WulfeHound #73742 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 17:44

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View PostMajorOffensive, on Aug 31 2016 - 10:42, said:

 

Sauce?  That looks familiar, but I can't place where I might have seen it.

 

 

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View PostDuty_Remains, on Aug 30 2016 - 17:00, said:

Incidentally that reminds me how much I disliked it when the US Army "upgraded" to the ACH (Advanced Combat Helmet, IIRC) that sacrificed roughly an inch of coverage around the whole helmet to improve soldiers chances of seeing or hearing things on the battlefield.  The ACH's padding system was also harder to adjust to sit lower on the head than the designers intended.  In my opinion the new helmet's only positive attribute was a less uncomfortable chin strap but personally I cared more about having kevlar between my brain pan and shrapnel than I did about whether or not my chin was getting chafed.

 

At a time when the US Army was strapping more armor to every other part of their soldiers' bodies, they decided to reduce head protection in a war where the most common threat was from explosive blasts and shrapnel.  :sceptic:  Yeah, I wasn't happy about that.

View PostTornadoADV, on Aug 31 2016 - 04:25, said:

Nape coverage got removed because the old PASGT helmets were being blocked by the gorget on the new IBAs and later when combat personnel were using prone positions and pushing the helmet forward over their eyeline. So instead of using common sense and flaring the last inch of K-pot neck coverage to go over the gorgets, they simply cut off almost two inchs of kevlar coverage for the back and side of your head. Because, you know, shrapnel will respect your issues and not strike you in the neck when standing up.

 

I suppose that's why they added the "nape pad".

 

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_Jayzilla #73744 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 17:50

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View PostThe_Chieftain, on Aug 31 2016 - 08:15, said:

I don't know if anyone's noticed them, but the commercials for Black Rifle Coffee are quite amusing.

 

Not safe for forum linking, I'm afraid.

 

Rita, unless something changes, I'm going to start looking for another source of information as to what my company's doing... Your updates are becoming few and far between. I'm glad you're enjoying your weekends away and all, but I can get that info here. I think you have to come to a solid decision as to what you want your blog to be. As a WoT blog, it's under-updated, and as a Rita blog, it's kindof overly WoTtish.

 

Black Rifle Coffee is funny.



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I get my fightstick tomorrow, hopefully. So I can start learning that for Tekken 7's release in December >:3 Is anyone else hyped? :O



KilljoyCutter #73746 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 18:11

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Dogs can evidently tell the difference between actual words and meaningless babble, and process this separately from the tone of your speech.

 

http://www.npr.org/s...eaning-of-words

 

This means that the old joke about saying "blah blah blah" in praising happy tones isn't so true. 

 



RitaGamer #73747 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 18:59

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Forgot to point out and its important, at leats in my eyes... the crazy guys and the kids were in different groups and at opposite ends of the camp.

We know each others and hang out together but they keep a fair good distance so the kids won't be scarred for life.

 

During the day I play with the kids and during the night I went to the other camp and came back to my tent (until it flooded) on tiptoes to not wake them up.



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View PostRitaGamer, on Aug 31 2016 - 16:42, said:

Is this intervention time?

 

 

Only insofar as the blog goes. As one public figure to another, such as it is. I'm sorry to hear about Squaddie-san and honestly wish you the best, but I'm purely addressing the perspective of your readers, there have been quite a few comments on reddit and various forums that RSR isn't what it used to be. I don't know if you've noticed them. 

 

The last WoT-related item on your blog prior to today was four days ago. The week previous, there was a three-day break. Another four-day break a week and a bit prior. With no indications ahead of time that these breaks would be coming. It is disappointing for me as a regular looking for information to go to the website, and see for most of the past week the same Panzer-74 picture. Eventually one will give up and go to another site, and once they find another side, that's that. For example, over on TAP, there seem to be multiple posts every day, to include one saying "I'm not here today" last week. 

 

Just what is RSR in your design vision? If it's a blog about "The adventures of Rita, the tank girl who also plays tank games, particularly WoT", then that's fine, but I'm not sure that's what it's being put forward as. On the other hand, as a 'source of WoT/Wargaming news', it's lacking compared to the competition for routine news, and the only point of advantage is some of the personal stuff (eg going to GamesCom, which, say, TAP doesn't do). Presuming that some of your income and viewership comes from people who know you through RSR, I think a little 'branding thought' is required so that what people expect is what they get, and some tuning of the content to meet that expectation.

 

Opinion worth what you paid for it. I just feel as a reader that the blog is of less use to me than it used to be despite my 'brand loyalty', and if I'm not alone in this opinion, it may be something to consider.



GoldMountain #73749 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 19:38

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There is such a thing as too much protection.

The amount of weight a soldier was carrying on foot patroll in Afghanistan was enough tod cause back injuries in a lot of people.

Reducing combat load is now a massive priority, without sacrificing protection.

_Jayzilla #73750 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 19:50

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View PostGoldMountain, on Aug 31 2016 - 10:38, said:

There is such a thing as too much protection.

The amount of weight a soldier was carrying on foot patroll in Afghanistan was enough tod cause back injuries in a lot of people.

Reducing combat load is now a massive priority, without sacrificing protection.

 

Implementing that costs money! What do you think the DoD is? Where would they find that kind of money? Maybe will come out this October :)

Edited by _Jayzilla, Aug 31 2016 - 19:50.


KilljoyCutter #73751 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 19:54

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I wonder how much next-gen body armor could be had for the price of a single Fail-35. 

 

 



RitaGamer #73752 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 19:54

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Thank you. You are right. Will seek to rectify it.

 

*chuckles* You know what's been on my mind/wishes last months? Find someone stupid enough or get someone drunk enough to marry me so I can get the British citizenship and bug off with the army for 2 years while I still can. Been wishing to disappear, if not like that then just ceasing. 

 

And Sorry for typing that... I'm just not okay at all atm...

 


Edited by RitaGamer, Aug 31 2016 - 19:56.


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View PostRitaGamer, on Aug 31 2016 - 11:42, said:

Is this intervention time?

 

...Ok...

I've gotten a lot on my plate at the personal level, one of the reasons I've retreated into gardening and been escaping during the weekends, been slightly on the verge of exploding, I can become very autodestructive right before I do and been trying really hard to stay on a healthy path.

Truth is I started having panic and anxiety attacks since last year, you, more than anyone else here knows why and they have become more frequent. I've decided to break-up with Squadie-San this weekend because of that, I do love him but can't take it, I can't find myself to trust someone still and been overly stressed this entire summer...

 

I'm feeling lost/no guidance in life and I've been feeling awfully alone and doing a lot of stupid / no moral things recently, it became worse around when I started hanging in this thread... I feel less miserable when I come here.

 

 

...I've been dealing with depression and anger issues...

 

There, you have it. I'm trying to keep straight, I really am.

 

Makes sense.  My work productivity suffers a lot when I'm feeling overwhelmed by everything.  It's usually my work itself that overwhelms me, but that just makes it feel more impossible to get it sorted out and under control.  It's definitely important to find other things to do to take you away from it and take care of yourself.  Chief just wants you to see what some of your readers may be experiencing to help you decide if/what you may want to do for your blog going forward.

 

View PostWulfeHound, on Aug 31 2016 - 11:44, said:

Renkin San-kyuu Magical Pokaan. Character is Liru.

 

That wasn't quite it, but that put me on the right track.  The 3D model is from a source a little more lewd in nature.

 

View PostKilljoyCutter, on Aug 31 2016 - 12:11, said:

Dogs can evidently tell the difference between actual words and meaningless babble, and process this separately from the tone of your speech.

 

http://www.npr.org/s...eaning-of-words

 

This means that the old joke about saying "blah blah blah" in praising happy tones isn't so true. 

 

 

A lot of animals are more perceptive than many realize.  People take higher order thinking for granted, even though most don't really do it that well anyway.

 

View PostRitaGamer, on Aug 31 2016 - 12:59, said:

Forgot to point out and its important, at leats in my eyes... the crazy guys and the kids were in different groups and at opposite ends of the camp.

We know each others and hang out together but they keep a fair good distance so the kids won't be scarred for life.

 

During the day I play with the kids and during the night I went to the other camp and came back to my tent (until it flooded) on tiptoes to not wake them up.

 

They have to grow up sometime.  If they don't see it there, they'll see it on their own at school with the other kids. :trollface:

 

View PostRitaGamer, on Aug 31 2016 - 13:54, said:

Thank you. You are right. Will seek to rectify it.

 

*chuckles* You know what's been on my mind/wishes last months? Find someone stupid enough or get someone drunk enough to marry me so I can get the British citizenship and bug off with the army for 2 years while I still can. Been wishing to disappear, if not like that then just ceasing. 

 

And Sorry for typing that... I'm just not okay at all atm...

 

 

For what it's worth, no one around here wants you to disappear or simply cease.  

KilljoyCutter #73754 Posted Aug 31 2016 - 20:04

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Maybe it explains a lot about what goes on in this thread, that it seems to have gathered people with various depression and anger difficulties. 

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View PostThe_Chieftain, on Aug 31 2016 - 19:32, said:

 

Only insofar as the blog goes. As one public figure to another, such as it is. I'm sorry to hear about Squaddie-san and honestly wish you the best, but I'm purely addressing the perspective of your readers, there have been quite a few comments on reddit and various forums that RSR isn't what it used to be. I don't know if you've noticed them. 

 

The last WoT-related item on your blog prior to today was four days ago. The week previous, there was a three-day break. Another four-day break a week and a bit prior. With no indications ahead of time that these breaks would be coming. It is disappointing for me as a regular looking for information to go to the website, and see for most of the past week the same Panzer-74 picture. Eventually one will give up and go to another site, and once they find another side, that's that. For example, over on TAP, there seem to be multiple posts every day, to include one saying "I'm not here today" last week. 

 

Just what is RSR in your design vision? If it's a blog about "The adventures of Rita, the tank girl who also plays tank games, particularly WoT", then that's fine, but I'm not sure that's what it's being put forward as. On the other hand, as a 'source of WoT/Wargaming news', it's lacking compared to the competition for routine news, and the only point of advantage is some of the personal stuff (eg going to GamesCom, which, say, TAP doesn't do). Presuming that some of your income and viewership comes from people who know you through RSR, I think a little 'branding thought' is required so that what people expect is what they get, and some tuning of the content to meet that expectation.

 

Opinion worth what you paid for it. I just feel as a reader that the blog is of less use to me than it used to be despite my 'brand loyalty', and if I'm not alone in this opinion, it may be something to consider.

 

This should help you out, https://thedailybounce.net/

Actual WoT info and not from that annoying TAP guy. He deserves more traffic, help the guy out.


Edited by gpc_4, Aug 31 2016 - 20:09.


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View Postgpc_4, on Aug 31 2016 - 20:07, said:

This should help you out, https://thedailybounce.net/

Actual WoT info and not from that annoying TAP guy. He deserves more traffic, help the guy out.

 

Except that he betrayed me.

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View PostSebastianulNA, on Aug 31 2016 - 20:27, said:

 

Except that he betrayed me.

 

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View PostRitaGamer, on Aug 31 2016 - 12:42, said:

Is this intervention time?

 

...Ok...

I've gotten a lot on my plate at the personal level, one of the reasons I've retreated into gardening and been escaping during the weekends, been slightly on the verge of exploding, I can become very autodestructive right before I do and been trying really hard to stay on a healthy path.

How is the gardening going?

 



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View PostMajorOffensive, on Aug 31 2016 - 18:58, said:

 

Makes sense.  My work productivity suffers a lot when I'm feeling overwhelmed by everything.  It's usually my work itself that overwhelms me, but that just makes it feel more impossible to get it sorted out and under control.  It's definitely important to find other things to do to take you away from it and take care of yourself.  Chief just wants you to see what some of your readers may be experiencing to help you decide if/what you may want to do for your blog going forward.

 

They have to grow up sometime.  If they don't see it there, they'll see it on their own at school with the other kids. :trollface:

 

 

For what it's worth, no one around here wants you to disappear or simply cease.  

 

That's exactly my problem. 

 

I've been trying to sort my sh*t out...therapy didn't help me.

You know what, F* it! Gonna type this out and put it behind, maybe it will take some weight off me....

 

I was victim of domestic violence for most of my adult life, I've kept it hidden bc of shame, since I came to UK I've been learning to get back on my feet... Things like Self confidence, social skills and as deep as emotions had to be rebuilt.  I've been achieving little victories, I can now be surprised by someone without nearly climbing the walls in fear, been going out more often, exercising but I have major trust issues when it comes to men... my biggest issues still are emotions. When I finally started feeling safe (and god knows how much Jingles worked for it) I started putting my guard down and suddenly all these emotions came rushing out and I didn't knew how to deal with them, last year things were really hard bc of that... I just didnt knew how to shut the tap. 

 

Altought I'm still very much devoid I've learned how to deal with most emotions but anxiety and anger are still the ones I cant contain...I usually deal with both privately, I dont scream or shout at people for example/when it comes to anger. Last time I sightly snapped at Jingles I felt so guilty that baked him an entire Almond Tart for himself.

 

Another issue is that I'm highly detached from people... these weekend escapades I've been doing? I've been trying to work on that... been doing over 500 Km during weekends to meet these 2 groups I just camped with, they are really nice to me, a bunch of missfits just like me but together we are like a big family. You have no idea how good they have been.  Hence why finally Im rushing driving license, so I can just drive up to them at my own terms which is also beneficial for the blog aka more time and yeah, they actually come all the way down to pick me up and drive me all the way back home too just to hang out with them.

 

 

The only thing I want is someone to hold me tight and to take the loneliness away...  Squadie-San couldn't give me that...

 

 

I'm learning to fly and trying to find who I am...

 



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I'm sorry we disagree/dislike each other, or I've been a #$%& in the past but I respect you. You need to come back and give me some real competition.

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